Realizations

Last night, when I was on my way home, I realized how exhausted I was because of everything that happened yesterday. I just realized how tiring it was when I tried to catch time. I only had 15 minutes left before my training began yet I was still waiting for my queue to deposit in the bank. I just realized how stressed I was when I was trying to make ends meet while budgeting my salary. No matter how I tried, it won't be enough still. I realized how pressured I was while I was trying to answer all the questions in our exams but still after clicking the submit button, I saw a failing mark. Awful huh! I realized that as I was taking my dinner, I was in a hurry but no matter how delicious my viand was, still I didn't feel full but not hungry either. Yesterday was just another stressful day for me. I realized that I always got into this situation before, for so many times already yet I still grumble. I never learned. That's why while I was walking last night, I kept on saying to myself as loud as possible (knowing that nobody is in sight) to forget about the worries. I promised myself not to think about my problems anymore because no matter how hard I think about it, it would still be a problem. All I have to do is think positively. God provides. I won't think about anything that would make me worry, sad and cry. I will think that I have enough money to sustain my family's needs. I will think that someday, all of the problems will finally get tired of following me. From now on, I promise myself to think only of the best, work only for the best and expect only the best.